I'm falling apart
lately, I feel like i'm eighty.
until I can confirm otherwise, I'm attributing it to the fucking insane humidity here.
basically, I wake up and feel like swollen shit every day. my left knee has been swollen (not visibly) for 3 weeks. I can't even comfortably kneel on it. my right knee "popped" a week later, and now sporadically hurts.
and my back....fuck my back. the left side right along the spine has been swollen for a couple of weeks, to the point that if I turn too far, it hurts.
and for the last 3 days, it hurts my back if I breath, look up, look down, to the left, or to the right, and sometimes straight ahead and level. which leaves me the option of nothing.
I'm seriously fearing that these are more than just "akes and pains" and that upon a visit to the doctor, he/she might actually tell me that I'm fucked up, which would probably lead to the airforce separating me on a medical discharge. I'm gonna get my knees checked out and get a waiver so that I don't have to run and march for awhile. I'm gonna let my back go though for about a week and see how it feels.
I REALLY REALLY need a fucking massage. I'm convinced that it would do wonders If I could get one atleast every other day. but, my adventures in "getting" a girl here have not produced fruit. instead I've been left at the base of the tall tree to stare at the its produce from below. tech school is almost over now, and the women situation should then improve. here, if a girl is even slightly "attractive", she's a goddess of sex desired and talked about by all. 8 weeks of boot camp and 3 months of tech school tends to lower the standards of many. straight outta basic, I was in a similar condition, but I quickly regained my calculated tastes. but few others have, so I here I sit, looking up.
I'm gonna go lift some weights.
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